01 December. It’s just left 9am UK time. My partner is off to visit her Mother’s house for the last time, they’re clearing everything out; she’ll be with her family but I’d have liked to have been there to support her. I’m visiting my daughter’s new house today, been putting it off for a wee while, not felt up to it. I gained 55 new registered users last month, so I must be doing something right, but nobody seems to want to make comment. I’ve still got to complete the Link To Posts page for November, most is done, just what I’ve posted the last few days, I’ll probably have to leave that till tomorrow. The more involved I get on this place what with being off sick from the day job, the more I’m finding is needing done. 02 December. It’s nearing 10am and I’ve sorted the Link To Posts page for last month and is now on site. I’m going to empty the box of all November files and see what’s relevant to post, I’ve presently got 26 to sort, shall get the last of the November files and then sort them all, it’s a time-consuming task. I want to do a bit more on gaining relevant files for the campaigns, gaining from previously posted and they’re on external drives. Met up with my daughter yesterday, was introduced to her new house, really proud of her, she’s done really well, aye a good time. I then met up with my partner who was quite fragile having gained bits and bobs from her Mum’s house and said goodbye to it for the last time. She’s at work today, can’t sit and dwell on these things. 03 December. It’s nearly 10am UK time. I have twenty files ready for an edit, they’re what remains of the November files, shall get them done today. I also want to gain some footage from the external drives for the campaign folders. At some point next week I need to spend time and work on this place, it needs to be made fit for purpose, not sure how I go about that. Going to go down town in a wee while with my partner, we need to get Christmas tree lights, won’t have the time to put up the decorations till later on in the week, but I’ll look the boxes out. 04 December. It’s nearing 1pm UK time and I had a busy morning. Was at the fracture clinic at the local hospital, got another X-ray and seen the consultant. He’s made it clear I’ve not to go back to my day job for another four weeks and wrote me out a sick note which I didn’t ask for. I’ve did a couple of posts and I completed the edit of the twenty files that were in the pending folder and are now in the Files To Post folder. I’ve got thirty-three files ready to post, and they are all November files. I should now have a breathing space so I can look at making this place fit for purpose. Before that however I should spend some time on gaining more files from the external drives for the campaign folders. 06 December. It’s nearing 10.30am UK time. I really need to spend time on trying to make this place fit for purpose. I need to ensure the mechanics are working, that a visitor is able to register as a user and if that registered user wishes to comment on my work, they can easily do that. I also need to look at polishing the site one hell of a lot, I need to look at the WordPress themes and see if there’s anything out there to do the job better, the theme I’m using I would suggest is a bit basic. The most productive path for me to do the above is to consult the WordPress forum, there’s people there that know what they are talking about and are really helpful. It’s a case of posing the right question. 08 December. I’ve managed to confirm that a visitor can easily register and can easily post a comment, not sure why nobody is. I think a lot of registered users will be spam, need to sort out an anti-spam plug-in. I’ve been looking at various WordPress themes, and a lot have a better look about them, but the menu isn’t as is should be or on some occasions just ain’t there at all, so I’m back to the Twenty Twenty-One theme, well at least it works. 09 December. It’s not far from 2pm UK time and me and my partner have been at it all day sorting the Christmas stuff out. Well that’s not really true, I’ve felt like a spare whatever, just wandering about picking this up and that up, I couldn’t even build the Christmas tree this year. I’m feeling a lot better but the break of the collar bone is taking a bit longer to heal, but it is getting there. We’re going to a Christmas Panto later tonight, I haven’t been to one in years. My day job mates will be there cause a colleague is part of the cast. It’s for charity and really looking forward to it. 14 December. It’s left 4pm Uk time and over the past few days I’ve been working on gaining footage from the sky box. I have 33 projects to work on. I’ve converted them all to MP4 and ofcourse foldered them. I’ve also gave them a transmission note. It’s all time-consuming and I sit and think, what the hell is the point. But I keep going, losing focus on why, but there we are. I have five November files left to post, I have 33 December files left to edit and all the rest of it. 17 December. It’s 2.35pm UK time. Over the past couple of days I’ve been working on the December files and they’re now in the Files To Post folder and I’ve posted the first of them. I’m not really getting anywhere with this place, I need to polish it up, but I need help, I’m no whizz kid. I need to promote the place, let people know we exist, but that takes finance. Oh well, not to worry. 22 December. It’s hard to believe it’s a few days since I did a My Comments, not to worry, we all have fast lifes, it’s called the modern technology and all that. I’ve been working on this place, don’t get me wrong, but this will be the first year in over thirty years that I will be off for Christmas and New Year’s Day, God off for Hogmany would be a prize, and I’ve won it! Obviously my sick note doesn’t run out till 30 December, and I am seriously not happy about that but the doctor at the hospital insisted on another four weeks and I need to do the physio exercises which hurt like nuts. I went to the city the other day and met up with my daughter and caught up on how she’s doing, and by all accounts, excellent. I got a lift from my son earlier that day with my partner to see our granddaughter, and she is amazing, a wee diamond. We’re getting picked up at 7.30am on Christmas Day so we can do the opening the presents thing, they’ve got a busy day; me and Karen are looking forward to just the two of us just chilling out and eating! My daughter had invited us through but my partner has just lost her Mum and I ain’t a social animal I’m afraid. There is so much to do here it is really upsetting me. I’ll have been off for two months and I haven’t really improved anything! I need help, but from where? 26 December. It’s not far off 5am, can’t sleep. Yesterday was a good and relaxing day, didn’t actually do anything for this place, felt like it a number of times but I think I resisted, needed a break. Yesterday morning at around 7am my son picked us up and drove to his house, he only stays five minutes away. Was able to wish the granddaughter a Merry Christmas, it’s her first one but obviously she’s too young to appreciate the occasion. We exchanged presents, had a coffee and a chat, aye, it was good. After my son drove us home we opened our own presents to each other, they were all under the Christmas tree and it now looks quite bare. Aye a good time. The day was spent watching Christmas movies. My partner did an amazing job with the Christmas dinner, soup then turkey with all the trimmings, we had a dessert a bit later and then another dessert a bit later again. A very relaxing and enjoyable day, just the two of us basically doing nothing. A Merry Christmas to you all. 28 December. It’s just left 10am UK time. I was really unmotivated yesterday, didn’t turn the pc on and sat and watched tv most of the time, just could not get going. I get these downs when I think about the ineffectiveness of this place, I put so much work in and I feel I’m talking to myself all the time. I’ve been on the sick from the day job for nearly two months and I’ll be going back the first week of the new year, I need to get my head straight. In they two months I haven’t attempted to get my head around how to properly promote this place, how to do that with little money, how to ask the world out there to support me in whatever way they can, the best way being finance. I need to get this place professionally promoted, that would be after getting this place professionally polished. Oh well. 30 December. It’s left 6pm UK time. To be honest I haven’t done much to improve this place today, just can’t get into the right frame of mind. Things need to change and change drastically, but I’m not at all sure in what way. I’ve had a couple of malts earlier and I’ll sip another couple tonight, not sure why Santa always delivers bottles of malt whisky, but I guess I’ve never complained. My partner is at work just now, we spent most of the day watching Christmas movies, and why not? I’m back to the day job on the 4th of January, need to get my brain sorted for that, need to get my brain sorted for this!! Things need to improve, I need support. There’s over 4,000 video links at this place, I’ve spent most of my spare time on it over the past few years. Oh I better not start complaining, I’m just moaning at myself.